cannot express..

i dont know what to say right now..happy??maybe..but a little hurt...he's going to be married next year..im happy to hear that..but..what about my feeling?? still cannot express da real feeling...what i can said to him is..congratulation..then when i asked him who is da lucky girl..he said..ada lar...ok kot for him..n when me fkir blik, patut ke me jmpe n going out with him mase me when to penang nnti?? nnti ape kate future wife die?? knpe die xnk bgtau aku sape bakal isteri die ek?? bkn ssh pn..n aku xknl pn pmpn tu.. mjlis kawin die pn..mybe aku xg kot...sory papa..me can't make it...