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Penyembuh Rindu

Mawi ft Diana Danielle

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da best day i ever had!

i really dont know

what to express right now..

really enjoy dis da

y

even 3 hours in lab

refreshing about anatomy

huhuhu

yeah of crse..

today is my birthday..

many things happen to

me..

in dis day...

last nite..

12am sharp

shikin wish me n min

happy bzday..heppy sgt2..

then alim call..

wishing it too

then me smpai blik..

my rumets sang da precious song

huhuhu

happy brthday's song

sgt kuat smpaikan

another rumet

trkjut from her sleep

lpas tu..

bertalu2 msg

from my hp

from my fb..

n ym

said

HAPPY BEZDAY MYZAH!!!!

tp mse tu

still sdeyh

cz my bezfrens,

mama,

n papa pingu

didnt wish me yet..

sdeyh lg ar

kul 1

redha cll

wish me bzday

dh kurg skit sdeyh

then pnah msg bzday

n td

mama plak wish me bzday!!!

waaaaa!!!

happy sgt2..

n yg bestnye..

akak, yan, n ezat

mke a surprise for me

im really2222 surprise for it

they make spagheti

its just a smple spaghetti

but for me..

it's da best

cz dh three days

me xlalu mkn..

xslere

dunno y

dat spaghetti

make me feel hungry

sgt kyg n puas

mkn spaghetti itu..

then they gve me

a cute bear

teddy bear..

so my bebear hve partner rite now

yeah!

THANZ AKAK, YAN, N EZAT!!!

LUVUGUYSTOTHELIMIT!

n one more thing

did u read my last post??

he wish me bzday...

sgt happy..

rupenye die xlupe my bzday!!

thanz to him

give me back

my spirit!

TO EVERYONE...

THANZ FOR UR WISH..

N

MAY GOD BLESS ALL OF U!

a story...

dh lame me didnt update my blog..

tooooo malas...

bz with my fb..

too many story

during my long vacation nieyh..

i guess..hehehe

sume ade..

cukkkup rase...

hahaha

1st of all..

ape ek???

no idea

to write da first thing...

emmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.....

ok!

1st of all...

my holiday..

full with jalan2..

even not to mall

but still happy...

cz jln2 with mkn2..

sumtimes

balik kampung..

coz byk sgt kndri kawen yg ade..

sumtimes..

me talk to myself..

knpa kwen time my cuti...

aku mlsss nkk pp larrrr!!!!

but

im still pray for them..

for their HAPPINESS!

hahahah...

im not dat cruel lar beb..

da past story..

let it past..

mls nk fkir dah..

agpun..

she's not like

what am i expected..

so nothing to worry..

yeah!

2nd story..

me got da result..

uuuuuu...

too99999

bad....

xtau nk ckp dah..

too much play2 diz sem ar..

need to focus

for da next sem..

promise!

malu with ajah..

she's got 3.5 n above..

but me???

but

im still brsyukur

for what

i've got..

at least..

more than 3

hahahah

3rd story..

actlly bfore dat..

me hve a fight with sumone..

not really a fight..

but

he did sumthing

yg very annoying

to me..

soo..

after dat..

me think..

should i stop it rite now???

i think...

me should wait..

until my bzday..

if .... didnt wish me...

me need to stop it...

dats da best!

here are some pic during my long holiday..hehehe

should i compromise???

what should i do rite now???

continue my plan??

or

should i be meltz again??

i dunno

wht's da best action for me

to take...

i cant stand with diz anymore

i need my life back..

life without

worrying bout sumthing stupidest..

i've never seen

anyone like him

never!

n i talked diz

to his fren

about my plan..

n he ask me

to think it more

deeply more

i think..

mybe he'll think me..

what a cruel girl!

but

i didn't worried it anymore

he said..

he'll support me..

support me???

a girl dat he didnt know at all..

juz know from facebook..

are u sure??

n of crse i think

u'll support ur fren more...

i dont think

there is a correction

to be done

what had he said..

make me think twice..

should i compromise again???

but

i scared..

he'll never use this chnce properly..

like the other chances

dat i gave before..

oh god..

plz help me

to find out

whats da best for me....

no story...

no story for diz eid...but the best story dat i wnna share...hahahah..bout sumthing stupidest...xtau..but pretend knowing me...hello???! did i know u??? oh nope! wrong sentence meyyh...DID U KNOW ME???..no..rite???kalu u tau, u'll never make make dat mistake..n even kalu u didnt know it, buat xtau sdh lar..y u should pretend dat u knew me even u didnt know me at all??? or u wanna me to feel dat u're da fren dat will never forget me?? oh shit! damn it! i didnt need it at all...or u wanna me to feel yg i should appreciate u even i know dat u dont have da right to take da appreciation from me??? blah lar! evrythng u do rite now will never erased what u had done to me before diz...i'll never forget dat!

nothing!

mlm ni..tetibe je aku trpanggil to make diz post..diz blog rndu kt ku kot..huhuhu...many things dat i wanna share..first of all.. ME MISS NAQIB!!!!! yesterday i called his papa...my naqib demam...uuuu..mse tu rs nk mltup je kpala, nk mrah to da person yg xpndai jage naqib! how come naqib dmam???cmne he jage naqib??? gram yang teramat lar sgt...smpai xleh nk study..rase nk mrah je...its ok qib, me balik next week.. then u'll stay with me..ok qib??? n to him..sory..me ckp agk kasar.. too much worried bout naqib..

pe lagi ek??

my sis.. i cant really say bout her..how come she should face these at diz time??? she have spm next week..dear god...pleaz give her back da spirit..juz take mine...me love her soo muchh!! i wish i could be on her side rite now...oh god..take me..fly to her...

lagi???

yesterday also..me went for shopping!!! release tension after biochem's paper..even i failed to answer it..hahaha...byk gler kot me shopping..p makan2 lagi...xtau lar knapa exctd sgt..hahaha..

p/s: wireless kt sni bodoh skit..xleh nk upload pics...nnti balik hamba upload gmbr2 tersebut yerk..sowie..huhuhu

today is sunday..huahua

aku xtau what is da main point for diz post..yang aku tau..tangan ku tengah menggatal hendak menari2 di ats keyboard ini...ku hrp..ku tidak melalut terlalu banyak..hahahah...

first of all..ALHAMDULILLAH..my exam goin' to the end...even i really dont know what will happen to my result...hopefully everything is ok..juz now i finished da lab science's paper..da questions are not hard but it juz becoz me xhfal..juz bace je..dats y byak yang me xleh jawa..ok..dont talk bout dat again..hahahah..right now, juz fikir nak balik..hahaha..

after dat exam, me p mkn d harmoni cafe..ngn yan n ezat..n yanti..huhuu..xleh blah! me jpe izat!!! huhuh..dari jauh me dh nmpak die..mle2 depa nk duk kt sblah mejaku..dlm hati aku,"izat...p la makan kt lain..malu ar aku klu ko mkn kat situ..huhuhu..p la cari tmpat lain.." bagaikan tuhan mendengar ape yang aku doakan...depa terus pndah masuk dlm cafe..hahah..alhamdulillah..slmt hdup aku..hahahha..lpas mkn..kami kuar..mle2 p tesco..xbli ape pn..da main point aku kuar is..nk crik kotak..to pack my things..tp xjpe pn..( bdoh kan..p cari kotak buruk kt tesco..xleh blah! hahahah)..then yanti suggestkn us to p PCB, mkan sotong celup..woww!!! ni pluang baek pye!! dh lame xmkn sotong..huhuhu..p la PCB..air tgh pasang mase tu..syok!! ezat! laen kali kte lagi ek..huhuh...tp ksian kt yan..die asyik nk mntah je..pning..sbb jln die same cm jln nk balik perak...kate yan...huhh..then lpas balik tu..ku xlrt yg teramat lar sgt..lpas kmas bju2 dlm bagasi, trus aku membungkangkn dri ku..xlrat weyh...bgun2, dh kul 8..nsb baek period..hahah..p mandi sat..then..nk wat pe ek???kotak xd lagi ni..mmpus aku! xsgup ku nk byar free2 rm81 kt nurani..huhuhu..pastu p blik yan.."yan...aku lapaq..." yan pn kbtlan nk p mkn..aku un join skli ar..huhuhu..lpas siap bgkus mknan, p 7e sat..tibe2 ku trnmpak sumthing yang mengexctd kan dri ku..seolah2 ke telah mencapai threshold level..utk ku generate action potential..(knp tbe2 je ade physio plak nieyh???huhuu..)ape lagi..KOTAK ar..huhuhu..ku semakin teruja..mle2 yan nk tye cashier 7e tu..tp ble fkir blik, die dh ltak kt tong smpah..mknanye die nk buang ar tu..kalu aku ambik tnpa bilang sama die, aku xdikire mencurik kan??kan2?? pe lagi..balun sume kotak yang ade..hahah..teruja2..balik bilik terus mkn( pnting tu..) bru packing barang..huhuhu..alhmdulillah..dh setel bab ni... thanz god!

y??? ade aku kisah ke ko nk kawin??ade aku kisah??? ko nak wat pe pn skrg, aku dh xksh dah..hdup ku happy without u..dlu mmg aku xleh timer bile xcntct skjp..tp skrg??? xcntct langsung pun aku lg suke..xyah ambik tau hal aku..aku tau jage dri aku..jga kesihatan aku...xyah nk sbuk2 kan dri..ari bhagia ko, bkn ari bahagia aku..so aku xkn pegi to celebrate it..lantak la orang nk ckp aku ape pn..aku xksh dh..org xfham aku..nk aku je yg faham depa..blah ar weyh..bru sekarang aku rase, mcmane kebodohan redha alami..hahahha..ku alaminye skrang weyh..huhuhu.. tp recording drama bi wat aku back to da normal again..too much miss them..n aku msg izat.."xleh blah ar weyh..rase nk glak je tgk drama bi kite..ko pye lakonan mmg superb ar..hahah..lawak giler.." byk lagi ar kami msg lpas tu..tp secret ar..hahahha...terlalu bahagia dgn drama trsbut,..fullamak! hahahha

kebosanan tahap maksimum~!!!

ari ni xd kje yang teramat lar sangat..

bgun tido dh kul 7.15...

tu pun emy yang kejutkan...

wawawawaw...

lpas siap smyang ape sume..

terus study..

tjuk hybridization..

first time..

aku faham dat tajuk...

before diz

aku setakat bace je...

xfhm??

lantak ar tu

hahahahh

then..

aku htar msg kt min..

"Min! nk g makan kul bape???

then min reply..

kul 11 lbih ar..

aku smbung study skit..

terus tido..

ngantuk..

semalam gayut ngn redha

lame jagk..

pnjang giler borak..

memang gelak giler2 ar..

die dh berkenan kat org jepun..

hahahahaha

xpe2..

mase makan td..

aku sempat lagi

sembang2 ngn family bahagia..

hahah

cik syikin, cik min, n cik dali..

wawawaw

lar ni pun

duk melepak lagi

kt blik cik syikin...

xtau ar

ble nak balik bilik..

huhuh

xpe

jp lagi aku balik study..

heheheheh

chow chin chow.....

sudah suratan takdir...

waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
tiade ape yang dapat digambarkan
perasaan sekarang..
terlalu sdeyh..
kecewa yang teramat sangat...
dh terlalu banyak
harapan..
yang aku sndarkan pada die..
ntah di mane silapnye..
kecundang jugak akhirnya..
mungkin aku terlalu berharap
padanya..
wlaupun
dh berkali2 dia bilang
"jangan terlalu berharap..
insyallah..
semuanya akan berjalan lancar..
doakan shaja.."
aku seakan-akan..
tidak mampu untuk terima
hakikat ini
terlalu sukar utk ditelan..
apatah lagi
bertahun2 ku menunggu
terlalu byk
yang mengutuk..
xpe
aku redha..
mungkin
ini suratan takdirnya..
ada hikmah di sebaliknye..
yang penting..
.....
GOMO KLATE GOMO!
YEAH!!
next season
rezeki kite plok!hahaha

kejam kah aku???

"kejam kah aku??"
satu persoalan yang menjadi tanda tanya..

sumone said..
"kejam ngat..."

btul ka???
y he said like that to me??
kejam lagi kah aku towards him??
ape yg tak kejam nye??
plz answer me!
me need to know..
if what i had done to u
still dianggap "KEJAM"
u lied to me
me xmrh pn
otherwise,
me tye u..
y??
u curang to me..
me didnt angry at all..
otherwise..
me tye u
who's dat girl??
try to accept her in ur life..
as well as me..
n then
me rase
we should not
continue like this..
n me decided
to let u go
bkn tak sayang..
but
its bcoz of me
too much love u,
me let u go..
u deserve a better one for u..
n dat was not me
me knew..
u're not happy with me..
coz i didnt treat u
as what i should treat u..
dats y u found another in ur life..
me always
think bout ur happiness
n now
u're happy..
with her!
kejam lagi kah begitu???!!
me just need a space
a small space..
to breath..
me are not a malaikat..
happy on what make u happy..
even me not happy for dat..
pleazzz...
i need ur understndg...

FROM SUMONE'S HEART...

As the day turns into night,
keep ur worries out of sight.
No matter how tough
the world may seem,
u still deserve the sweetest dreams..
take care..
n remember that..
i care u...
this may not affect
other ppl's feeling..
but,
it give thousands
meaning
to me...
n i'm not worried anymore,
even my world
seem to be
difficult,
coz i know..
there's always
u
for
me
.....
thanz..
LYE JEE LENG..

love me?? not really...

i dont know what can i really say about me right now...my feeling..terlalu byk perasaan sekarang..before a few hours ago.. my life as usual..hapy, fun..tp sdeyh skit bcoz of my exam.. y must my life goin to be soo difficult??? i really dont understand diz..im not JLo, not also katy perry..but me is me..NOOR HAMIZAH BINTI MINAL..knapa ssh sgt nk mnjalani hidup sbg NOOR HAMIZAH BINTI MINAL???? me also want my happiness..but when i got it, always der is sumthing yg akn destroyed my happiness...y??? when i luv sumone, i1ll try to love him more than anyone else include amir..they said they love me..but never understand me..terlalu cpat give up make me feel dat he was not serious with me...y?? ble jadi gni, me think dats no man can replace amir..cm satu sumpahan pulak..friend is friend..forever friend... xkn berubah hal itu...n to him, me dont know what to say anymore..u didnt look like wanna protect our relationship..juz accept sumthing that can be change,..ok me understand dat..

cannot express..

i dont know what to say right now..happy??maybe..but a little hurt...he's going to be married next year..im happy to hear that..but..what about my feeling?? still cannot express da real feeling...what i can said to him is..congratulation..then when i asked him who is da lucky girl..he said..ada lar...ok kot for him..n when me fkir blik, patut ke me jmpe n going out with him mase me when to penang nnti?? nnti ape kate future wife die?? knpe die xnk bgtau aku sape bakal isteri die ek?? bkn ssh pn..n aku xknl pn pmpn tu.. mjlis kawin die pn..mybe aku xg kot...sory papa..me can't make it...

down again...

down again.. my hi's result was very bad...tp kali ni memang expected..cz my prctcl exm mmg truk..xleh buat..me cant say anything..tu lar..ambk mdh sgt dat sbject..
bajet pandai lar mizah??! pdn mke! menyesal skrg pn xgne dh...

artherosclerosis...

sumone said...mizah! rmpas blik pkwe ko..pkwe ko tu..ko syg die kan...n then me said...ko lar kwn baik aku...BANGANG PYE IDEA! what can i said anymore for dat stupid idea..beb! me cant do dat lar...xsmpai ati...mcm bruk siku pn ade..dh bg, nk ambik balik plak..ape kes??! kalu aku wat cm tu kt ko, ko mrh x?? bkn stkt mrh je, siap smpan dendam lagi nk bnuh aku..hahaha..me knew u better ar babe! i cant really said bout dat person..but sumtime me miss him..even rite now i have my papa pingu, puteh, mama n fmly but still i need him..sumtime me rase nk je call die cm dlu2..but mcm xptut plak wat cmtu...bkn mcm, MEMANG TAK PATUT! dh lame me xjmpe die..mls lar weyh..xd mood...hahahha..really breaking heart..hahaha...jangan pandang belakang..huhuh...




weyh! how's bout our plan?? holi2day d penang n kedah..hahha..me cant wait for it... to my dearest...., sory babe. cant join ur family day...me got a giler idea to do wif my kmpp's fren..huhuhuhu.. send my lot of kiss n hugs to our baby k..n ur mum too...really2 cant join all of u..n really2 sory for dat...iloveuguystothelimit...my kmpp's fren...kte nk p mane nnti??? da most important place yg we must go.. of crse lar KMPP..meet our mummy there n my papa pingu also..too much miss them...then aku nk ajk pkcik tu p main boling skali bleh???huhuh..saje nk spent time ngn die..ni plan aku je lar..da next day, kte p island..hahah..wajib pergi ke penang hill...nak naik cable car!! da other days..korang pkir lar plak...byk bende lg aku nk kne pkir ni..huhuhu..meet2 there ok?

u got what u'd done..

i dont really know where i should start this post..from where i got da strength to post diz..even right now im very down..i think everyone knew why im feeling dat way..only 2 things dat will make im down...first of all, what i can say is ALHAMDULILLAH..Im not "fail"..but most of the result dat were came out really make me very upset..too sdeyh with da results..i dont think i can make it anymore..mama...abah.. im so sorry...please..dont get angry with me...i dont know whats wrong with dat..i study very hard..but da results like not on my side..its very unfair! no! i should not said diz..ya Allah..please forgive me...sy terlalu hina for saying dat it was unfair...i dont have da right to say dat..but..what can i say anymore..da results was too cruel for me!!! i cant accept dat!! is that my fault??? di mana silapnye??? please help me to find dat!!! i cant stay like diz...i need to find dat and try to improve it to the better level..adakah aku riak??? ya allah..di mane keriakannya??tjukkan padaku... mybe aku tidak menyedarinya..or maybe i dont know it was a riak..tolong tunjukkan padaku..ineeditsotothelimit... n right now, im juz felt dat my life was meaningless...cant make my family proud of me...papa...i need u right now...i cant handle it by myself..terlalu sdeyh to think bout diz..where are u papa???

here! here! here!

here!here!here!

ah! not this papa...


but my papa pingu... where are u???

lacrimal gland to the lacrimal duct...

dont know what to say actlly...many stories which are lawak..hahahha...bengong..( dont know what expression,sumone plz help me to express dat feeling:)),,sedih..wuuuuu...3 in 1...
me juz had my first ospe..anatomy ospe..dat questions really killed me! i think can count lar how many i can answer it properly..i mean cnfm btul la..huhu..almost stations yg me xleh jwb were by .....me cant really said his name..takut kene saman..hhuhuhu...memang giler la...ape pye soalan daa..xd pun dlm lctre die..bleh gler kalu gni..next week, im goin' to have lab science's ospe plak..before da real final exam.hope i can handle my life..to my family..im sorry if i cant make it as what u'd expected.. but i promise dis is my first n last...i'll study more harder for the next sem..rite now,im studying lab science..huhuhu..(still hve time to make a post,,huhuhu)

after dat ospe..we went to the harmoni cafe..eatin'2..i'm lovin' it! hahaha..me n kak mkn nsik aym..yan chicken chop( my fvrte!)..huhuh..and today..me wear bju kurung...da maroon one..huhuh..again...huhuhu..then..on the way to kb mall..me trsrmpak ngn izat...hahah...xbleh blah lar! trus me glak when i saw him..hahahah..xleh nk thn..bcoz of him, me wearing dat bju kurung..n serte merta he said,"bru nmpak hari ni"...huhuhu..only me n him know what's da meaning of dat sentence..huhuhu..me juz nodded da head..n blah..huhuhu..malu lar..n dlm kete me gelak puas2...hahahahahahahhahahahh....yan n kak pun geleng kepala..i cant see u lar izat..nk gelak je..hahahaha
i dont know whether i should say diz or not...but my heart say i should...even i know dat..it cant make da problem settled..i juz want to confess sumthing yg maybe make sumone's heart is hurting...first of all..im sorry..i really dont know if what i'd done will make my life as well as his life going to be ruined..dat pic..was not da real pic..what u got, is not as what u think..me juz want to know whether what had u said is true or not,,so i juz gave any pic to u to make u believe it dat i can happy even not with u..but i really dont get it..y u just got not in mood??i think it will make u happy..please...understand me...dat pic was not da real pic..i cant continously lie to u..it will make me..xsng duduk..always thinking of u...if u happy,juz say it...if not, PLEASE MAKE IT CLEAR...I REALLY NEED IT!!!

aku bernafsu!

lately, me sgt bernafsu! nafsu to eat..even me in fasting but still wanna eat everything..waa!!! byk mkn maaaa!! kfc,mcd,pizza hut, nasi kukus, chicken chop and so on make me feel wilt..me want them!!!! n when me call my mum n story to her bout diz, she said,mkn bace bismillah x????n me stop! me bace bismillah x???lupe ar..rse mcm bace je.. alrdy know dat it was my habit to baca bismillah first before doin' anything.. juz kalu nk tutt je , me xbace lar..hahaha.. yesterday n today..me xmkn....mlm bru me strt brkfst..hahah..n when me talked diz to my pingu, mmg kne lctre hbis ar..kne lctre bout mkn2 ni.. pdn muke! sape suh bgtau??! damn it! they doesnt know, me bernafsu to eat sumthing else.. i dont know what is it but when i ate, i still feel not fulled yet..xtau nk mkn ape lagi.. too afraid if i eat so much thing, i'll obese! me dont like it!!! rite now my weight is stable..around 38kg.. not underweight but ideal..hahaha..n also rite now, me really feel to eat mcd.. should i call 1300131300???hello! please send me mc chicken meal 1 set to desasiswa nurani,usm kk..asap ok??? should i??? dont lar..juz wait yan get back lar..she's goin' to buy sumthing..huhuhu..eat2 more okay?!

LatissIMUs DOrsi..

me should more advance bout diz..should detect it earlier..but i still dont understand why we should be like diz..i wonder why diz happen to me..i ask everyone, why?? n sometimes me thought dat it was not fair for me to continue it.. me have my own decision.. y dont i just follow my decision?? i dont wanna think about my previous story... now, my story will be more difficult..more like harry potter's movie..i need someone to help me...but is it ok?? for me to let sumone help me in my life?? i mean handling my life.. even my mum said, u should think it by urself.. u're almost 19.. do ur own decision...but i dont think i can make it.... me are now going to have some test..life test,frenz test n even my final exam.. my life goin' to be more difficult..n i need to beware wif diz.. family,redha,fatin,waniex, n puteh are my power's topup along my life..love them so much!

nOT ur BAby ANyMore!

That's da point!
me not ur baby anymore!
don't u get that??!
and don't ever call me like dat!
me hate dat!
what the hack with u??
n juz get lost from my mind!
i dont wanna share any memories with u anymore..
juz pretend dat we never know each other.....
i have my life
as well as u..
juz go ahead wif dat..
don't ever try to take care of me..
u'd decide diz..
n i will accept it..
its too cruel for me
to hear what have u said!
n too hard to accept dat!
so dis is da end of our story.
fullstop!

y should be like diz??!

Dat case is not settle yet..xtau lar ble nk hbis..too much persoalan among us..y we need to havoc2 bout dat case..dh mhkamah tetapkan dat she will be caned..n sebat tu i dont think it will be da persoalan..dh byk ulama' discussed bout diz..dat diz sebat is not like da mahkamh sivil pye sebat..diz is syariah..both are not same..most of us ingat, syariah pye sebat like sivil ke??? Islam dh menetapkan cara-cara menyebat mengikut islam..n dat's mean islam xkejam! langsung tidak menyalahi hak asasi manusia.. diz sebat juz for mengajar da others, supaya xikut melakukan kesalahan tersebut..kenapa nak bantah lagi??? n kenapa tetiba u point up to mansuhkan hukuman sebat?? sebat is one of the hukuman in Islam.. if we hapuskan diz sebat, dat's mean like kite nak mengubah hukum Allah.perlu ke begitu?? u should learn more bout Islam before pointing up sumthing yang agak ridiculous n try to understand it..im not saying dat im know everything bout Islam as im also in learning..as a muslim, we need to continuosly learn bout islam..Islam itu luas..everything yang islam dh tetapkan untuk kite, it is da best for us..segala jenis hukuman dalam islam, there is sumthing yg baik for us..nobody don't have the right to deny it..

peLIk Bin AJaiB

wht's wrong wif him?? i still dont really understand bout him..i thought i 'know' him, but still sumtime he made me felt curious bout him..i wonder bout his feeling..yeah..maybe die sht secara luarannya..but dalamannya??very pening to think bout diz...tp..i nk fkir jgak!!!when i talk to him bout my "pertunangan"die mcm terkejut gler! ye..sume org akan terkejut bout my terburu2 pye keputusan tu..tp die mcm xleh tmer hakikat je...mcm nk msg pn sdeyh..tp ble i said dat "pertunangan" is just a joke, bru lar i felt that i am messaging wif him..kalu x, rase cm msg ngn org lain je...ble i sbut sal tunang je, msti die jadi mcm org lain...y??xmgkin die still felt dat feeling??die jgk yg nk aku change my feeling towrds him..dei pye perubahan tu sgt ketara n aku rase cm nk tye je..tp kalu aku tye pun, die msti bg jwapan negatif pye kt aku...n semalam, when i talk bout a ..., n i mtk chnge ngn die,die tye dh ade ke?? i ckp lar otw.. sumone nk blikan..sje je nk tgk die cmne..ble ckp cmtu je, die glak pun mcm buat2 je..n tye sape org tu?? n i continue my plan ( to test him)...i said..ade lar...sampai mase nnti sy bgtau...huhuhu...n then trus die ckp, xpe lar..nk tdo dh,esk kje...gudnit,tke care,bye..strght cmtu je...xsbut pn pglln mnja aku ngn die..strght cmtu je lar sbjik2..makin aku fkir, mkin pening plak rasenye..kalu betul die still ade dat feeling, knp xckp je??? aku pn still xleh buang perasaan tu...ntah lar..xpyh fkir dh lar

aku budak baik...

At last..aku dh bleh trime hakikat bout sumthing..thanz to Allah..give me sumthing yang wat aku appreciate n bersyukur sangat2...die satu2 nye abg agkat yang aku syg sgt..slau ambik brat sal aku...

papa..

sye sntiasa doakan papa..

dpt jdoh awl..

wlpun sy tau

kalu papa kwin awl

sya akan bosan

n mybe

akan kehilangan papa

it's time for me

to make u happy

as what

u had done to me before

i love u

more than anyone

but as my abang

i'm very happy

to have a adopted brother like u

can't say anything..

hopefully

papa dpt jdoh awl

n happy wif her!

xpatut, xpatut, xpatut....

juz now..baru aku terfikir sumthing...awat lar aku ni CERDIK yang teramat la sgt...duk fikirkan kebahagian orang lain..kebahagian aku sndri xpnh fkir..ksian kt org lain, last2 dri sendiri yang merana..awat lar aku ni baik hati sgt bg 'org tu' kt orang lain..ish2...xkn nk ambik blik kot???xptut,xptut, xptut...xper lar..bkn jdoh aku ngn orang tu kot..lantak lar..mls nk fkr dh...n orang tu, aku tgk hepy je ngn ktsn ni..ok lar tu kot...awat lar byk sgt kot aku ni..mase raye bru2 ni..aku bru terfikir..aku rase cam adik aku dlu je yg kawin..terpaksa lgkah bendul la kau zati....nk tgu aku,nmpk gaye xkwin la adik aku tu..bf pn xd lagi..bkn aku memilih, tp aku nk yg mak ayh aku stju..mk ayah ak agk crwet skit lar..espclly abah..die nk yg bljr tggi (aka strf dgn pnddkn aku,even aku xksh pn cmne2),n jaga solat..yg 2nd tu aku stju..aKu xnk mendidik,tp dididik...biar lar si dia dpt jaga aku dlm hal2 agama..tu sgt penting bg aku..hopefully, aku dpt cari yang sebegitu..

unknown..

i really dont know what should i do right now..semalam rase macam nk giler! rasa macam nk jerit je.. tension yang teramat lar sangat..too much thinking bout him..rayer kali ni aku rase cm nak nangis je..1st rayer, aku lupe nk mtk maaf ngn my pingu awal2..lupe..bukan SENGAJA lupe..yang die plak raye aidilfitri die btul2 sebulan agaknya...xmcm aku( org pntai timur)...kami raye aidilfitri 2,3 ari je..lps tu xd dh lar..yang die plak,sampai raye ke5 tgh syok p brayer lg..ish2..plik2.. ble aku msg je, die kate "tgh duk brayer ni..","tgh maen bnga api ngn bdk2 ni.."sangat bosan! n yang nk buat aku semakin meletup, semalam die lgsung xbls msg aku! bengang gler! nk mrjuk ari ni!hahaha...

SELAMAT HARI RAYER!!!!

utk semua..selamat hari rayer..
ampun maaf dipohon sekiranya ade terlanjur kate,terkasar bahasa, buat orang kecik hati..
mohon maaf dari hujung rambut
hingga ke hujung kaki
SELAMAT HARI RAYA...:)

melayang-layang...

Lately, me slalu fkir yg bkan2..sgt mengarut..i don't know why..but maybe i just want to prepare myself if it happens to me..but when me terus terusan memikirkan about dat thing, me don't think dat i can face it better..what in my mind right now?? of course bout my parents.. too much love them..i don't say dat org lain xsyg dorang pye parents. but what is da best word dat i need to use to show my love to them??? i can't really said it..but too much think bout diz, made me cried... i don't think i can live without them..yeah..org lain pun mcm tu jgk..but now we talk bout myself! macamane nk hidup without mama n abah??? terlalu bergantung hidup dengan mereke..seminggu skali, kalu xcall im going to be crazy..sometimes my mama said,"call wat pe nye,xd pe nk ckp pn..membazir je.." but da reality is im too much miss them...me always think, kalu one of them xde, how's bout me?? adik beradik yang lain??? i still remembered, when ayh fatin meninggal, i juz could only said..SABAR..but i don't think if it is happen to me, da word will made me tenang..im going to be crazy!!!! memang lumrah, stiap yang hidup pasti akan mati..bile tgk or baca kat paper, yg lagi muda dari mama n abah, meninggal dunia, make me think...one day, they will go too..but what can i said right now, i'm not mentally prepared...xtau nak buat macamane skrg wit my life..n always in my doa,

Ya Allah,

aku memohon

perkenankanlah doaku yg satu ini,

agar aku bahagia seumur hidupku

tanpa rasa penyesalan di hati

Kau matikan lah aku

sebelum Engkau

mematikan ibu bapa ku

agar aku tidak berada di dalam kekecewaan

di kemudian hari

Matikanlah kami di dalam iman

hanya itu permintaanku

mohon perlindungan dariMu ke atas keluargaku

amin...

Keterlaluankah doa ini?? pentingkan diri sendiri kah aku ini???

salah aku kah????

tak mendoakan org lain...

salah aku ke???

aku juz nk org fhm aku..

setelah sekian lama..

xpernah ade org memahami aku..

diorang cakap diorang faham aku..

tp ble dh dapat,diorang lupe aku...

aku xkata, diorang dapat kerana doaku..

mungkin doa mereka sendiri..

tp knpa terus lupa aku???

"saya janji..xkan lupakan awak..."

tp akhirnya???

janji manusia xpernah betul..

n aku xpernah pegang janji manusia..

semuanye berubah2 mengikut citarasa mereka...

salah aku ke???

sekiranaya aku tidak mengikut kata nya...???

utk mendoakan kebahagiaannya..

bertemu jodoh lebih awal...

aku terlalu mahu mereka bahagia..

tapi aku terlampau takut

untuk kehilangan mereka...

aku perlukan mereka dlm hidupku..

aku xnak pengganti..

salah aku ke?????

aku xnak..

yang ini pun pergi jauh

dari hidup aku..

aku perlukan dia..

semangat die..

yang selama ini

membantu hidup aku

untuk terus melewati dunia ini...

tapi..

aku juga ingin melihat die bahagia..

pengalaman lalu terlalu menghantui aku

berulang kali menghantui aku...

aku xnak kehilangan die lagi..

aku xmmpu

berenang sendiri

tanpa berpaut pada mana2 dahan..

aku mmpu lemas..

tolonglah aku ya Allah

ape yang harus aku buat..

aku xmmpu kehilangan die

tapi aku ingin melihat die terus bahagia

slahkah aku

kerana tidak mendoakan kebahagiannya???

salah aku kah????