katupan

Hidup terlalu singkat untuk dihitung akan segala kemungkinan..ada kemungkinan segalanya tidak mampu tercapai dek akal...

aku menghayati..setiap detik jam berbunyi...

aku menghayati.. setiap langkah yang ku tempuhi...

aku menghayati..setiap memori yang menerjah di fikiran ku...

kemudian..aku pergi ke satu sudut..

satu sudut di mana aku mencari akan konklusinya...

diam...

membisu seribu kata...

aku duduk rapat-rapat..menutup segala kemungkinan

cuba menghayati...

sunyi saja...

tiada sebarang bunyi...kata...

kosong...

yang pasti...

bola mata ku ternganga luas..memandang di setiap ceruk ruang

seakan-akan mahu ditembusi..

biar aku mengerti

apa sebenarnya yang cuba di cari...

biar aku mengerti

segala apa yang tersembunyi...

nampak..

segala apa yang ternampak..

dengar...

segala apa yang terdengar...

kata...

segala apa yang terkata..

cinta..

segala apa yang tercinta...

apa yang terfikir..

biarkan mereka berinteraksi sebentar...

aku tidak kejam...

cukup begitu sahaja...

aku fikir..

lebih baik aku diamkan sahaja akan mereka..

ku katup mataku

dari melihat pandangan segala jenis mata

ku katup telingaku

dari mendengar segala bisik

ku katup mulutku

dari terlopong

kemudian berbicara sesuatu

mahu saja aku berdiri..

mengatakan apa yang pernah terkata..

namun..

ku tak mampu melawan satu kata

yang disebut qadar dan qada'

aku ketawakan sahaja..

setiap inci keraguan dan juga kekeliruan

yang cuba mengganggu setiap fasa kehidupanku

aku katupkan mulut

biarkan mata sahaja terjegil

biarkan telinga sahaja yang menadah

walaupun nafas terhenti..

rnduu!!!!

seriously, dunno what to post..juz drop to read again my old post..sincerely, me miss him back..there is only one thing dat i wanna do right now...get me back to my previous memory..i need it damn much..sometime me thought dat i dun wnna grow up..juz let me be a baby..or juz let me be when i'm sweet 18..really miss dat moment..can u take me go back there??

last night, got a nice big chat with my BFf..hahaha.. actlly, really miss him.. long time dun see him.. he's in kemaman right now....back to unisel tomorrow, mybe..huhuh..me will be in kemaman for next weekend.. still can't see him..hurmm..nvm..we will meet on dis raya..then we will spent for da whole day together..hahahah..too many story dat we've shared last night...me ckp everything yg me rse lately.. bout my thinking..my feeling.. as usual, die suke perli me..urgh!! but same to him..me pn wjib ar perli die jgk..fair n square lar..hahah..

me talk everything to him... no secret at all when me with him.. talk about my pingu..sumthing dat i think it is stupidest to be thinking of but still yet im thinking bout it..huhuhu..n die gelak mcm org gler bler dgr me ckp cm gtu..ish!! i need ur support lar bongex!!

dulu my pingu pernah nshtkn me..jgn tdo wktu maghrib..klu x, nti jadi giler..

seriously me glak je bile die ckp gtu..igtkn die sje je nk knekan me kan..

but ystrday me rse cm

what he had said it before is true...

seriously.....

me mcm org gler smlm..

kesnye, me tdo time mghrib..

bgun dari tdo, me syap jeh..

bgun smyg, mengaji, smyg isyak

then me naik katil balik

rse mcm lain gler..

xd mood yg teramat sangat..

better to stop here..

me nk mndi..dh bcux sgt2 dh ni

smlm xmndi..

sbb rse gler sgt

hahaha

daaaaaa

psst...me rndu sgt my pingu..wanna see him damn much..tp..die nk jpe ke me?? hopefully can meet him in my dream today..

bodo eh

hve u heard one of malay idioms?? susu dibalas dengan tuba?? a great cngrtz to da susu! suddenly wondering da idiom..me as a tuba??owh..really great!

timer kasih di ucapkan..kalau ada, berilah lagi..:))

i gve da way, u gve me da smoke..skli lg..THANKS...

juz one thing that u should think it deeply..behave urself..before saying anything to me..if u are REALLY a great person, im glad to hear anything good from u.. but to me, u are nothing!!! jgn hipokrit babe..no need to behave like u are somebody when u are nothing..really ANNOYING! yes!

WTF!!! yup! this is me..kalau xbleh terime, its ok..bkn aku hadap sgt pn..but ur fucking statement really ##@*%#! urgh!!!

mira!! need ur help!!huhuh

p/s- this post is bcoz of sumone yg very annoying..timer kasih..:)

mYvI...

myvi??? what colour?? putih??? arggghhh!! get it away from me!! me dun wnna see it..xnk igt dh..please!! help me!!! sepanjang prjlnan to KL, of crse lar byk myvi..tp every time me see da white myvi, me igt kt dia..plez!! go away!! me xnk igt kt u!! sllu..me tgok myvi putih, me tgok plat nye..n sumtime me trlalu brhrap it's P** 4**4..me nk jmpe die!! no!!! me xnk jmpe die..me xnk igt kt die..tp smkin dpksa smkin kuat igtn trhdp dia..i need my life back!! plez..go away from me!!!me nk lupekan anda cm anda lupekan me..plez.. let me in peace..

chipsmore!!!

still remember da ads of chipsmore?? my fveret time kechik2 dlu..huhu..not da bskut but da ads..skjp ade, skjp xd..hohoho...lately me alwayz wondering sumthing...hve it or not?? ade ke xd??? if me said ade, cm tak ade je..if me said xde, satgi org ckp me tipu plak..+, stgi ade je yang mengaku...klu me buat budus, depa duk tanye2...actually..ade ke xde nih??? me rse cm 50-50 je..ade n xde...kalu ade, dats mean me kne buat die mcm xde..y?? sbbnye me igtkn dh mmg xde..huhuh..tp klu btul2 dh xde??? me should get it back or juz leave it??konfius..konfius.. kalu btul2 dh xd, what attitude should i show?? happy?? or sad???again..50-50...hahaha....tp me tgok..cm nk me aggp dh xde je..tu my cnclusion lar...xtau ar btul ke x..xnk ar ye2 kn aje..stgi xpsl2 org tduh me mcm2..kne tgu ke?? smpai bile nk kne tggu?? dh bosan nih!!! klu 2 in 1 aci x??hehehe..

klu nk ambik yg org pye, agk2 org mrh x?? me ske yg tu... tp dh ade org amek..klu nk kidnap bleh x??? me nk yg org pye tuh very crazy!!! knp org tu ambk dlu...tp serious! klu me got it back, yg org pye tuh, serious me xnk dh yg lain..bg ar sribu yg same, ttp me xnk..yg chipsmore tuh??? sure me anggap dh xwujud... but da question is, org tu nk bg blik ke x kt me?? xkn baik hati sgt die nk bg kt me.. bkn sng nk dpt..hurmm...so..konklusinye...kne tgu yg tuh or ambik yg org pye tuh??..then..im finding for da conclusion..

psst..!!

serious! klu nk tgu mmg xbrbaloi..blum tntu dpt n ade..

hahah